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What difference does a year make?

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What difference does a year make? In my case a lot.
On this day last year I celebrated New Year’s Eve with my mother in the emergency room, with other patients waiting to be sent to their respective wards.
I can still remember vividly everything that happened last year…
My first time spending New Year's Eve in the hospital It was the saddest New Year’s Eve of my life. I remember my sister visiting mama for a couple of hours at the emergency room. We were still there because there was still no vacant bed for mama. The wards were jam-packed with patients. She arrived after lunch and helped me cleanup mama’s bedpan of excretion. We talked for a while and then she left at around 5PM. I was fighting back my tears because I was sad to see her leave. She was headed to her friend’s house to celebrate the New Year. We were for a moment complete as a family at a very depressing time. At least we were complete. It was all that I could ask for even for a brief moment for us to celebrate New Year’…

Flores de Mayo

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I had an awesome childhood. It was fun, memorable, and formative. There were experiences that I’d like to keep to myself which I’ll bring with me to my grave and then there were some that I’d always talk about with my friends.
Here’s one of those things that I’d always wanted to share. An experience that has always haunted me.
Do you know how kids from provinces religiously attend Flores de Mayo? Because in our street it was a social affair. My friends and I were always excited to go to our Parish Church every afternoon and mingle with kids our age. It was an event that was attended by everyone in our area. Especially by Catholic kids.
Flores de Mayo is observed during the month of May – when kids are on vacation and are stuck at home doing kid’s stuff and playing outside until they get tired. It is a 2 – 3 hours event which starts at 3pm or 4 pm in the afternoon. Every weekday kids from our area flock to our Parish church to attend Flores de Mayo.
Here are the things that happen during…

Paramore soars with 80s sounding synth-pop perfection of an album

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I won’t be reviewing songs with music videos already. You can figure out by yourself how awesome and 80s sounding Hard Times and Told You So are (at this point I guess you already figured that already). Explaining it here would be redundant. But significant nonetheless. But my hands are tired from typing so I’m two songs short.
After almost 4 years, Paramore is back with their fifth studio album entitled After Laughter. Their latest offering marks a new era for the band with their 80s and synth-pop sounding album.
Hard Times
Also, a live performance of Hard Times.


Told You So

Here's their live performance of Told You So.


Rose-Colored is the darkest song off the album.


The song starts with a loud bang followed by these 80s sounding synths accompanied by catchy drum beats. After a few seconds Hayley’s cheery line comes in -
“Low-key, No pressure! Just hang with me and my weather.”
After a few lines or so you’re already engaged with the groovy and fun song, which would remind you of an old …

My Life Testimony

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Growing up, I have always been a curious thinker. I question other ideas, even my own to prove a point. I am always searching for answers.

Then one day I got interested on the idea of afterlife. What happens when we die and after that? What happens to our soul? Are we just going to become ashes and eventually vanish on the surface of the earth? 

Is heaven real? Is hell even a real place used to scare people?

I have so many questions left unanswered.

And the questions kept on coming…

I have always been curious as to why we’re here. Why are we on this earth? What is our purpose on this earth? Is there life after death? Or is afterlife just an idea produced in our minds to shut us up from all the seemingly unending questions we have? The questions seem endless, the answers still unknown.

I have this notion that every question has an answer only if we are eager to seek for it. And while days, months, and years passed by, my frustration grew and grew. It came to an exhausting point, and then I …

Happy Mother's Day Ma!

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My dearest mama,
How are you?
How is everything up there?
Are you doing well there? I hope you’re doing great.
Is it true what they tell us here? That there is no pain and sickness there? Only happiness and eternal peace?  If that’s true then I’m envious of you. You are in a better position than all of us here.
To update you on my life here’s the status quo: Grief has always been a daily thing for me now. Since the day you left us, there’s that emptiness in my heart – a hole that remains, a void that sits somewhere and always tries to make its presence felt.
There are also these waves they call, when out of nowhere I am reminded of you and then a wave of emotion just stirs me to tears.  It leaves me for a while and returns with an increased intensity. Somehow I get used to these waves and the heaviness that comes with it. There are bearable moments, when I can just fight back the tears. But then there are also tough days when I’m at a public place and I cannot control myself from crying. O…