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IV stands

I woke up at 9AM today, feeling tired again. It's been like this for days already. Stayed up late last night. Woke up feeling sleep deprived.  I'd be preparing my lemon water before starting my day but before going about it I remembered my mother. I remembered how strong she was back then when she can still carry her IV stand to the CR when she needs to relieve herself.  Fast forward to her last week when most of her strength was gone, I recalled a thing I'd make her do. I'd let her hold my hand and squeeze it as hard as she could. It did not hurt. But I remembered her strength and determination being felt by my hand. And most importantly her hope - that somehow at some point everything will be okay. I miss you mama each and every day. 

Reflections on Death

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https://understandinginnovation.blog/2017/01/26/ignorance-curse-or-bliss/ My father died when I was 3. Back then I never knew what being dead meant. What it meant to my father and also for me. My mother told me that while she was carrying me as I look at my father on his casket I kept on asking papa to wake up and get out of the box so he can breathe and not die. Ironic isn't it? That while my father was already peacefully tucked inside his coffin I was adamant that he get out and get some air. Back then, I never knew the concept of death. I don't know at what age children start to realize that their dead father is not asleep or that he is never going back from his "vacation." That people don't just go somewhere and never come back. And that people don't normally forget how to breathe in their sleep. Those were white lies told to us because back then when our brain could not process the idea of someone being dead especially a loved one. At what